Its too late.

It started as a 72 hour crush. But it was so intense. I still remember the first night you told me...
.............."I must say, you are most enchanting and arresting piece of femininity whomever you are"
I wrote it on a peice of sticky.
Oh, like i needed to!
It was carved into my memory
Like a birthday that kept on coming.

You spoke like a word fiend
And my love for words would not let me
Ignore the beauty that in you spoke to me
I simply, fell. Broke a hip. Could not get up. For 72 hours.

I remember when it faded.
I looked around and saw I'd be jaded.
you did not feel what I felt.
And I go scared, thinking I'd be left in love, alone.

I needed to let go, so I wrote
.............................."The love that is fire, will burn out"
I wanted a reminder that this too, shall pass.
Wellll it did.
Unfortunately.

A day or so after that, I realised I was not physically attracted to you.
I didnt like your dumbo ears.
And those pants just didnt do it for me.
What was worse? you were lanky.
You just were not my type.
But ohhhh you spoke like a sexy man. Sent words through my spine down my shin. Called tingles through my tummy. Your words made me drop allelse I ever wanted.
You became sufficient.

Now you're in love with me.
You never say it.
You dont need to say it.
You cry it in your tears.
And i see it in your words.
You are madly, in love.
Just like I was.
This is what I wanted.

If only you'd given me this, then.

Today, you ignored me. I said hello, you looked away.
The side of your face reminded me of nothing I'd ever seen.
It hurts you know, to be shunned like that.
So I asked why you're sulking so
And you said
............"I think I'm becoming obsessed with you."
But where do you get off?
And how the hell dare you?
You came out of nowhere.
Never did admit you wanted me!
Never ONCE did you ask me!
Never EVER have you told me!
I've ran around in circles,
Trying to get you to see this!
I have tugged at your heartstrings
Only because you, had tugged at mind!
When you would not see what I felt
I simply left,
Though it was not easy,
I got with someone else.
It is too late.

But I too, feel.

So when all of a sudden you today, decided to share your thoughts.
I was shocked.
That out of nowhere, the mute had found a voice.
And dare I say, decided to speak volumes
YOU TELL ME this?! OUT OF NOWHERE?!

And there I was, left alone.
Without no one to hold me up.
So i slumped.
And cried.

Its ridiculous.
That you'd hurt me.
Thinking you're the only one with feelings.

In desperate times.

Running to us
I slipped and fell
Got bits of sand
Embedded in my knee
And you saw me down
Glanced within yourself
And saw what I was.

I caught that glance.
It woke me up
Reminded me

Us.

At that very moment.

I dont know which is which.
You or me.
One of us, isnt deserving.

I realize through it all
never did let myself forget
If it wasnt for the wind
I would not have ran to you
And if not for the heat
You would not be running
guts-a-bouncing
age-a-chasing
and I,
gold-a-digging
stretching out to you

Cant help but to laugh at it all

We would have made a cute ridiculously transparent ...
"couple".

So, I'll nurse my wounded knee.
And attempt to pick the sands out it
It really is no price to pay.
For what we could have been.
*peace*

No way to redeem.

Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
THe past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I've held so dear.

I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

Heaven bend to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...
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