What is meant to be...

Sometimes, things seem so simple
yet you go out, over and beyond
just so they wouldnt be.
because complication is interesting.
and simple, simply isnt.
Sometimes you know what is right
but act out the wrong
because addiction is a powerful thing
and alcohol isnt the only addictive drug.
Sometimes i wonder if i'm meant to live this life.
Easy. Straight. Simple life.
Because as it all unfolds,
like a beautiful orchestra in a theatre.
I choke the opera singer
because he sounds way too perfect.
So maybe perfect isnt me.
Maybe i want something else.
Sometimes
i wonder if i truly am meant to be.
Happy as this...
or maybe life is to remain as such.
This tumbling roller coaster.