I feel
like i am near end and its chilly out here
like
my winter is coming and i am not ready
i feel like i am
......
i am scared.
of what is to come.
and i want to stop it.
but i couldnt help that one time.
so i cried.
i am. getting there.
and i dont want to be.
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"...Though I tried, fallen I have... I messed up....and there doesnt seem a way to be redeemed... Sunk so low....Better, I should have known."
"Hell is Truth seen too late"- Thomas Hobbes.
Who am I, you ask?
- Standing Truth Betold
- Pettsimellie, Blongo, Nicaragua
- looking for a safe space to spill ma deepest,truest feelings...in hopes that i can someday look back, and learn from and hopefully, be proud of my choices. This here, is my history, and the stories of my current days. Welcome, to the Truth and nothing but the truth, so help me God. Welcome. To my diary.
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"...Though I tried, fallen I have... I messed up....and there doesnt seem a way to be redeemed... Sunk so low....Better, I should have known."
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12 comments:
Hmmm, kinda sad, what is it about? the end to what?
how are you?
what end is this or this fate that seems to be inevitable?
Are u ok dear?Its just a Phase....You'd be fine my love!
wats up gal? U need some1 to talk to? Cos if u do me is here for u.I do wish u a fantastic Nu Yr!!
hellolove, happy new year..hope u are ok?
babe wanna share? take it easy ok.
Afrobabe: um... the end of my "feeling good" state.
Unnaked: better now, thanks.
Mwendwa: um... depression.
Chika: thanks. i AM.
Nikkisab: appreciated. Happy new year to you too and thank you so much.
Zephi: happy new year to you too. yea, thanks.
Desperate lady: i'd share if i still felt that way but its really hard talking about depression when you're not depressed anymore. Its one of those things thats easier to explalin when you're still in the phase. In hindsight, my feelings werent justified, but at the time, i had every reason to be sad. Yeah, taking it easy. Thank you.
just take the jump. there will be something to catch u
When r u going to update....ok pls update
Hey babe r u alright? It's been a while.
HONEYWELL: I will be. I'm waiting to exhale.... hopefully before i die of co2 toxicity lol
Caltwalq: okay, i'll say you said so.
ONB: i was waiting for the "please" and now that you have said it,... just did :)
DL: yeah, thanks. cant wait to get back into the groove of things.
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