Remembering... Kimani

I dont know whose story is longer; Kimani or Chads'.
To remember Kimani is to uncover a lot of bottled emotions. But! i know Kimani MUST be remembered because he is one man thats had the most negative impact on my life, EVER. But like anything thats bad for you, Kimani's story has a happy ending (the happiest being that i havent seen him in YEARRRRSSS)

Why am i remembering Kimani?
i mean, why today? out of all the days, why now?
why?

because today, i was treated like Kimani told me i'd never ever ever ever ever be treated by a man.
as TBS hopped out of my bed spontaneously like an easter bunny last night and said "babe, you're amzing!"
i thought to myself; thats odd, Kimani was SO sure i'd never be wanted nor be good in bed.

as TBS suddenly paused in the middle of a thrust, gasping for air, moaning the words "babe, you're so sexy"
i remembered Kimani's words. They echoed "i'm the only one that'l ever want you" in my head

as TBS called me from work to tell me he loved me, i smiled. Remembering just how long the love has been and how much stronger it seems. I remember Kimani, continuously saying "No one else can ever love you"

and i laughed.

Kimani, your words did nothing but show me just how determined you were, to kill my spirit. I cant say you were blind. No. A blind man would've simply failed to recognize a gem. But a scared insecured man, would see it, yet call it a mere stone, hoping it'd be tossed away, so he may go pick it up later.

Kimani, you've always been such a fool.